[[ Listening to : Jal Jal Ke Dhuaan - Ek Khiladi Ek Haseena ]]

Yay!
i finally feel like i am back to being myself again.
okay.
i know you guys dont understand wat i mean.
you see,
since the time i've been at home all day long,
i some sort started actin "wierd"!!
i know this sounds crazy, but its TRUE!
yall would only understand this if you've been thru a solid 3 mths
stayin hm/goin HOSPITAL/juz starin at the walls!

its juz pure maddness!!
i went to read up about this n guess wat i found out?
ppl who start becomin extremely BORED, actualli
start bringin out the "child" out of them !
as in, being abit more childish than usual.
or they start showin loads of care and concern on a certain person /ppl
n they actually stop being themselves for that whole period of time!!
wth!!
wierd eh?!

so i guess i am or should i say i was one of those whose been goin thru this!
-sigh-

i would sincerely like to apologise IN PUBLIC to all those ppl who have been a "victim" of mine!!
whether a person to whom i have been realli affectionate/ lervy dervy or wat so eva.
whether a person to whom i've been realli crazy/stupidly stupid behavin like a lil girl!

i m EXTREMELY SORRY TO THOSE WHO SOME SORT REALISED THAT I'VE BEEN ACTIN "WIERD" LATELY!
lols.

but now i m back!!
as in back to my usual self!
behavin like any normal 16 goin on 17 kid would.
that would be a person with a bit of seriousness, a bit of maddness, a bit girlyness(lols), a bit of everything lar!!
i think i m back to myself now cos skols startin soon!!
juz another 2-3 weeks more to go!!! woohoo!!
as you can see i m all pumped up n ready buzz to skol!
ahahahas.

a piece of advice to those takin o's this yr: U GUYS BETTA WORK HARD N GET YOUR ASS TO A GD SKOL!! AND WHILE WAITIN FOR UR RESULTS, GO AND WORK!!
DONT EVA MAKE THE MISTAKE I DID!!!
AHAHAHAHAHAS.

oh yeah! did i mention about my phone?
its been actin stupid.
somethings wrong.
last sat, it juz went on callin ppl on its own!!
wtf?!
i didnt even touch it .
i was blardy fr away from it!
and many ppl called me back and started yellin at me !
walao!
i didnt do anything lar!
then wen i called my mom and the call wen to ash!
it was so wierd lar!
so i would like to apologise to everyone for that wierd phone call!
i promise i didnt make those calls!!
PROMISE! so pls dont yell at me alrite?

SMILE EVERYONE!! =)

alrite thats all folks!!

cheers!!

[[ Listening to : Dare you to move - switchfoot ]]

[[ When I look out my window: Its raining!!]]

HELLO ALL YOU SWEET THANGS!!

ahahahas.
i m sure u guys missed the"OH SO GREAT RUTH"!!
(yea rite)
lols.
kiddin lar!

anw i 've been a lil bz with some stuffz
so i couldnt update.
yea..

oh i have to say that my weekends were SIMPLY THE BEST and i MEAN THE BEST!!!
it was filled with so much fun and "adventure"!!
hahahahas
i mean it was juz totally crazy!

haha


SATURDAY:

i went over to my cuz place ard 4
n waited for my cuz n her bf to come n
they came at 5.30!!
walao.
hahas.
then all of us had a feast!!!
oh yummy yummy!!
i tell you the food was juz AWESOME!
there was chicken curry, chilli prawn , fried chicken breast meat ( my fav part of the chicken!!) n cabbage!
we all ate as if we havent been eatin for ages!
hahas.
then ard 8.40 we left to yishun safra to play BOWLING!!
lols.
was realli fun lar.
but wen i started playin at 1st, the damn ball kept goin to the longkang!!
damn annoyin you know!
then later did i realise that it was cos of the weight of the ball!!
i used the ball which weighed 6 pounds at 1st, den i tried the 10 pounds..
aft that , i started scorin betta!
from juz 1 pt to 56 pts!( its aint too bad for a beginner ok?!)
and i got a strike too!!
woohoo!!
anw , we finished at ard 1.30 am.
haha here comes the best part!
we went for GHOST huntin!!
ahahaha
at yishun park!
it was blardy funny !
my cuz played the song " namma kaattuleh" from the tamil movie paatiyal.
it was so damn dark ok!
there was no damn light source at all!!
den while walkin we were all talkin bout ghost stories n stuff..
ahiya but in the end got nothin freaky lar.
but was fun!

we only got home ard 2.30
n watched some ghost movie on suntv!
then played pictionary till 6!
lols.
my cuz's bf had to leave.
later we juz went on crappin till 7.30.
crazy aren't we?

den we all wen to slp and woke up ard 1.
den we had lunch from our uncle's shop in yishun!
i m sure the yishun ppl should know him!lols
the chicken biriyani was gd!
hahas
i m not gonna say who my uncle is ! uh uh.
den we watched enamo tamil movie all lar.
until evenin.
had canadian pizza for dinner and i got hm only at 10.
lols.

oh yea! did i mention that i nearly fell at amk?!
yes ! i nearly fell down near mos burger!
blardy hell! it was rainin so heavily that i slipped!
thank god i didnt fall!
but i got a damn muscle pull on back part of my knee!
dammit! it still hurts!
oh wells..

i m extremely sorry bout the super long entry this time!
hehes
i hope you guys dont slp half way while readin!
anw thats all for tdy i guess!
cheers!

[[ Listening to : bad day - daniel powter ]]

damn!
i sure miss bloggin bout my happenings.

anw, i wen for this midnite show tdy with my cuzzins , mom, grandma and aunt.
i watched 2 movies in a row!
tamil lar!
hahaha.
paatiyal and dhishom
it started at 12.30 am and ended at 5.30 am ( both the movies of cos!)
paatiyal has realli made its stand. lol
its a nice movie despite all the fightening.
to me, the songs were fairly good.
haha all in all , the movie got standard lar!
hahaha.
the other movie wasnt so bad.
but its not even as gd as 10% of paatiyal!
it was like paatiyal more of a real kind of a thing and dhishom was some kinda cartoon!
lols.
oh and did i mention!
3/4 of the place was filled with india workers!
they were makin so much of noise!
walao!
i din bother lar..
hahaha.

den aft the movie my cuzzins and i walked back home.
hahaa was realli funny.
wen we got back we were so sleepy that we couldnt slp.
so we ended up goin to frenster and laughin and diff pics( i know! its mean! but we were bored!)
lols.
den 8.30 muz go church .. we all ended slpin!
hahaha.. my mom and aunt wen church lar..
sigh..
anw, i juz got back home and i m gonna slp AGAIN!
dead tired!
till then , bubye!

[[ Listening to : Kadhal Yogi - Taal ]]

WHAT'S GOTTEN INTO YOU?!
I THOUGHT YOU WERE HURTIN ME ALONE!!
BUT NOW YOU R HURTIN EVERYONE ELSE!!
WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU?
IF YOU DON'T WANNA TALK TO US OR BE PART OF US DEN JUZ STAY AWAY LAR!
WHY PUT ON A STUPID MASK IN FRONT US ?
I DON'T GET IT YOU KNOW?
WE ALL CARE FOR YOU SO MUCH AND THIS IS WHAT WE ALL GET IN RETURN?
DAMMIT!

ITS REALLY VERY HURTIN!!
WHY DO YOU HAVE TO DO THIS?
YOU ARE COMIN OVER TO MY HOUSE NXT SAT EH ?
LET ME REMIND YOU, BE YOURSELF!!
DON'T PUT ON A BLOODY MASK!

I JUZ CAN'T BELIEVE YOU R BEHAVIN THIS WAY!
YOU WEREN'T LIKE THIS BEFORE !
IT ALL STARTED LAST YR !
I HATE THE NEW YOU!!
I REALLY HATE THE NEW YOU!!
YOU HAVE CHANGED ALOT!!

I LOOKED UP TO YOU AS MY ROLE MODEL !
I REALLY LOVE THE OLD YOU!
THE ONE WHO WOULD ALWAYS BE THERE TO CHEER ME UP
AND TALK CRAP!

OH FUCK IT!

-toomanychanges!

I seriousli have no idea whats goin on these dayz!
Its bloody wierd!
When i turn to my right I see best of frens havin misunderstandings. WHY?!
I know misunderstandings do happen between best frens, but its juz sad to see.
come on guys! yall have been frens for sucha long time? why dont all of u talk it out? over a coffee? atleast u guys get to clear the uncomfortable feelin u have towards the other party?
isnt that gd? try it!
When I turn to my left I see young kids what
gettin laid, takin drugs, glue sniffin , gang fights,etc..
When I look straight, I see the world comin to an END!
When I close my eyes,
I see pain, sadness, problems and everything!

WTH!!
Whats going on?!
I juz dont get it!
The worst part is I dont know whats the problem I m facing!
I realli dont know why am I feelin like this!
like an idiot ? swine? moron? jerk? jackass? bitch? fuck face?
which one is it?
I DONT KNOW!

am i being a gd daughter?
am i being a gd granddaughter?
am i being a gd friend?
am i being a gd cousin?
am i being a gd student?
am i being a gd citizen?
argh!

its a feelin I juz cant explain! AT ALL!!
maybe i should just be incommunicado!
why isnt time flyin fast when i need it to!

I juz need something!
but whats the something?
maybe a fren?
maybe go out?
maybe skol?
maybe running ard the block?
maybe a motivation?

have yall ever thought what is it gonna be like in 10 yrs time?
what would we be doin?
maybe workin? some maybe even married?
life isnt gonna be easy at all!
esp when it comes to the workin society
everyone fights/struggles to maintain their positions or to move up!
they can even go to an extend where they would even put others in trouble to move ahead!
being bias, being what i call idiotic!
its a stupid life out there!
but still you have to go thru it!
oh wells!
i guess thats what you call"LIFE!"


I know i literalli jumped from one topic to another!
cos thats whats goin on in my head!
nothing stays still.
it jumps to something else.
oh fuck it!

puttin the past behind and startin afresh sure is difficult!
but i will not give up!

put the past behind and start afresh yall !

[[ Listening to : Yesterday once more - The carpenters ]]


hahahas.
i changed my blogskin again!!
i have no clue what went wrong with my previous skin!
annoyin!
nvm.
anw, i like my new skin. looks very BRIGHT!!
ahahahas
any comments? feel free to tag!
oh yea.. i got a new tagboard! i "disposed" the other one as it has explict comments in it! lols
tag tag tag!!!!

haha..
oh wells..
tdy i wen for medical check up .
it was okay i gues..
juz the usual stuff.
x-ray, urine test, blood test!, height and weight!
oh and i grew up! lols
as in i grew taller by 2 cm
and loss 3 kg!
yay!!
oh and i met 2 ppl whom i no!
one was JAZREEL , my primary skol mate .
the other one was Juliana(is that how its spelt?)lols.
hahas.

den went to TEKKA for lunch !
ahiya! sian la!
anw, i was too hungry to complain!
hahas.

yeaps..
tats all fer tdy i guess.. kinda borin day !

-shakeit2thebeat____

small loser
BIG loser
BIGGER LOSER YOU!
welcome to LOSER land population 1!
YOU! LOSER!!!!! ( WITHA capital L) lols

ahahaaz.
i miss sayin such stoopid things!
realli!

anw,
tdy was juz pure craziness!
those who were with me should no why!
lols..
it was fun !
hahahas..
dont wish to elaborate any further :P

ya so tdy i juz did abit math and do nothin!
oh yea !!
did i mention bout the podcast tat tim and kian did?!
hahaha!!!
it was bloody funny!!
esp the bangladesh guy part!
hahahas
i was laughin my heads off this mornin!
lols!
gr8 job u guys!
hope to hear more of those!!

oh and i got my poly package thingy alreadi!
finalli!!!
hahahas.
oh wells .
skol is startin on the 17 april!
there is an some kinda "bonding" thingy on the 13th from 8 am to 6pm!!
WTH!!
but gd lar! hahahas
cant wait!!
oh and i will know my class and stuff!!
oh wells ..
i hope i end up in a class filled with NICE ppl! hhahahahahahaz
yeaps..

anw gotta buzz..
will keep yall updated yea?

-shallwedance?

[[ Listening to : Tajmahal Oviyakadhal - Kalvanin Kadhali ]]

okay.
its wierd.
one day you are fine and the nxt you are not!
WTH.
lols.

anw, tdy was juz borin!
juz like all days!
stay home and stone!
omg. seriousli, its very annoyin and killin!
everyday wake up, take breakfast, go online and wait for 3 ppl to come online.
wen they dont, i appear offline and practice math and eng!
den watch some lame tamil movie on SUN TV!
cant go out! WTH is wrong ?!!
argh! nvm. dont wish to talk about it!

i juz CANT wait to get my ass to poly!
its realli not cool being at home for 3 fuckin mths! MONTHS mind you!
crap!
i hate being alone at home.
altho my granny's home too, i do spend my time with her.. but being at home all day long its juz unbearable!
now i know how my granny feels!
wen u r alone u think about the past and everything !
and past means happy times and SAD times!!!
oh forget it !

i'm gonna squeeze the fats out of my body now (exercise lar!).
excuse me.

-dropped______

[[ Listening to : yenno kangal - kalvanin kadhali ]]

yay!
i loved yesterday!
was fun !
met up with my cuz and wen to J8( no big deal lar! lols)
juz wandered ard and ate at pastamania!
gd food!

den ended up goin to funland
and played the car game.
it was super retard okay?
my cuz was juz screamin like an asshole !
okay lar .. i oso did the same!
stupid maree!
hahas.
den some shootin game!
hahaha! it was bloody lame!
i wen "thew thew thew thew" ( the way the smal kindergarden kids would go with their stupid paper gun!) haha!
its was ridiculousli fun!
my cuz was wonderin wat's gotten into me! haha.

anw , we got home ard 3.30 pm
and watched VIP ( tamil movie)
hahas.
loads of memories juz came bouncin back to me wen i watched the movie!
memories which could make me cry!
it was filled with so much of fun , innocence, stupidity , everything!
i realli miss those times!

its realli wierd!
everything that happened yesterday was juz like my past! wen i was a small kid!
i juz loved it so so much!
oh yea i wen to watch the shaggy dog at nite with my parents.
it was funny .
juz a typical disney movie ! ahahaz!

anw i juz loved everything that happened yesterday!

YOU, thanks for makin me feel betta ! u made my day!
thanks for talkin to me and like i asked,
why do u always make me love YOU even more?
sucha darlin u are!


and then i go and spoil it all by sayin something stupid like "i love you"

[[ Listening to : Thaiya Thaiya - Uyire ]]


oh wow!
i went out tdy.
where? HOSPITAL!
wtf? annoyin !

anw, ended up goin orchard aft tat.
and guess wat?
i wen shoppin for clothes!
aft a LONG time!
and much head crackin, i bought 3 tops oni!
it cost 54 bucks in all. not too bad i guess.
i still got loads of stuff to buy!!

let me list them all down:

- more tops!!
- 2 jeans.
- 2 3/4 pants.
- 1 berms.
- a pair of shoes.
- a new bag (hmm on 2nd thoughts i shall buy another 1 more ! :P)
- a pencil case
- stationary
- hope to buy new mp3 player aft sellin my current one ( ipod or the sony one)
- maybe a new watch ?

thats all i guess.. hahas..

oh and aft goin to orchard wen to tekka AGAIN!
but i wen there to buy movies!! hahas.. my fav thing to do at tekka! lols
oh wells..
its skol hols nxt week..
i hope my cuz will be free so we could all go out !
oh and i hope the girls will be callin me out for the study dates too!

anw, gonna catch a movie now !
but b4 that i betta have a cool shower aft a long day out!
hahas..

toodles hunkies and girlies!
have a gr8 weekend and enjoy urselves!

-inlovewithSAMBAR!

[[ Listening to : Kadhalikkum Pennin - Kadhalan ]]


I LOVE IYER SAMBAR WITH FRIED IKAN BILIS SAMBAL!!!

DAMN nice!! hahahas


-falleninlove

[[ Listening to : Smooth - Santana ft. Rob Thomas ]]

as you can see, i have changed my blog skin once again!
this one looks very calm and cool.
like it gets you into the "mood".
hahas.
any comments bout my new blog skin?

anyways, i had to go to tekka this aftnoon!
it was a total torture!
i dont hate tekka but i hate to GO to tekka on a weekday at ard 11 plus!
its so ew?!
i get this wierd feelin!
its juz like goin to orchard on a tuesday at 10 am!
you get wat i mean ?
yea.. so i when to gandhi's to have lunch with my uncle and granny.

guess who i saw?!
hahas..
i saw gunalan.
the damn popular guy.
he comes in most of the recent indian dramas.
hahas.
it was funny.
cos he kept lookin ard wonderin why no girls went up to him to say hi or something. lol
i mean he gave that kinda look .. so thats all i can infer from his look !
oh yea did i mention that it was fuckin hot?
yea it was so bloody hot tdy!
ahiyo! cannot tahan!

the moment i got home i turned on the com and my AIR-CON!!
hahas..
was surfin the net to find chalets but could onli find them all fully booked!
DAMN!
not all actualli.. there one place where it wasnt fully booked and thats changi!
so i didnt even bother checkin out anything bout that place due to close encounters of the i dunno what kind!
hahas.
yeah den ended up callin mooksie wooksie and talked rubbish as usual!
its realli fun.
and not to forget LAME!

and now dyin cos of boredom again! stupid lar.

anyways i muz exercise now! catch yall later!

oh yeah i 4got to mention! i LOVE writin with my left hand! so fun!! its like so damn cool! hahas i got so bored that i practiced writing with my left hand and got the hang of it! cool eh?

-nobodywantstobelonely!

[[ Listening to : Track 6 - Planet Galatta ]]

YaY!!
finally my dad called the air- con guys to repair my air-con!
its been 3 mth bloody mths since i slept in air-con!!
i dont know how did i actualli survive it!
GAWD!
nearli died!

but i realli muz say the guys did a very gd job!
oh and did i mention?!
one of the 2 guys who came went out of the window and sat on the air-con box!!
WTH!
hahaha..
should have seen my granny!
she was so scared to look at him!
she kept sayin " ahiyo... aavan ooluva pohran!" ( ahiyo! he is gonna fall down!)
lol..
i was laughin everytime she said tat.
that guy didnt even appear scared at all!
in fact he was singin song all!
haha.

i actualli didnt come online this aftnoon at all!
but i did come online in the morn ard say 8.30
and only came online juz a few mins ago!
TATS A MIRACLE!
you muz be wonderin wat i did durin the time i wasnt online..
i was doin HOUSEWORK!!!
OMG!
i swept the the whole house!( oh and the air-con guys had to come and spoil everything by makin the rooms dirty! dammit! lol.. i had to sweep again!)
den fold and hang clothes!
den the usual cleanin stuff lar..

i smell like the air- con guys rite now! YUCK!

gotta go take shower now! hahas

oh and muks thanks for taggin ! haha and thanks alot for yackin with me EVERYDAY!
hahahas! i'll call u again tmr morn 10 clock sharp! hahahahs ..

i m missing a lot of ppl rite now! i wonder y?
who do i miss? hahas
YOU!

the one whom i chat with everyday without fail.
the one who doesnt tell me anything bout his/her prob yet i keep torturin him/her by askin him/her bout it.
the one whom i love irritatin !
its realli wierd! i talk to u everyday yet i still miss u! ( the 1st person i miss)

my CUZZINS and all the stoopid stuffs we do together ! ( the 2nd grp of ppl i miss)

the girlies i met last fri! (the 3rd grp of ppl i miss)

my sec skol frens except ONE! (the 4th grp of ppl i miss)

and others..

i miss myself!


finally i get to sleep peacefully with AIR-CON!

-faceit!

hmmm..
i dunno if i m being abit too wierd!
i mean like i m being like damn lervey dervey these days!
wth ! its so not me!
something is WRONG!
realli wrong!

ahiyoyo!
its not that i m not lervey dervey.
its juz tat i dont show it!
but now i AM!
and i have no idea why!
wierd!
anyone knows why?
lol.

i think mayb cos the usual grp of frens i had GAVE me hell of a time !
and i think i m being like this cos i need a new grp of frens .lol.
deprived!(hope not!lol)

oh wells skol is gonna start in april
like so damn long lar!
wanna go skol!!

TO the girls i m suppose to go and STUDY with: DEY!! wen r u guys ever gonna call me!!
i m dyin to go out and study..okay i think i sound way too desperate! but who cares! i wanna go and study out! u say its tmr and the tmr NEVA comes! lol.. hahas kiddin lar.. i understand u guys r realli bz and stuff... aint gonna disturb u guys too much. BUT tat doesnt mean u guys can leave me out of the study dates! lol.. juz call me weneva u can okay?

den tdy was juz another borin day.. stay home .. talk on the phone .. den my cuz came.. lookin thru frenster and laughin .. was kinda happy! hahas..
now got nothin to do lar.. did my studyin ALONE! sob sob..

den now gonna take my shower again cos i've got nothin betta to do !
man! wat kinda lame life is this?!

i have not forgotten what you said! those words were juz the key to my breakdown!

- still being lervey dervey?!

i had the worst and most stooopidest weekend eva!
its like bloody lame lar!

seriousli! YOU got no life isit?
damn annoyin i tell you!
anyways wat on earth did the girls do to YOU?
they dont even know anything bout YOU!
they din even bother YOU rite?
then why go hateing them for no fuckin reason?!

YOU've got no rights to call them a filthy bunch of fucked up frens YOU GOT ME?!
NO BLOODY RIGHTS!
they are MY frens! and just like i said b4 , I CARE FOR THEM AND I LOVE THEM!
so shut that GAP YOU have there and dont bother BITCHIN( YOU said i was a bitch who bitched about YOU eh? and u accuse me of tellin them tat YOU bitched about rj wen i didnt eh? well nowYOU made me say it!) bout them!

since wen have i never valued anyone's frenship?!
YOU"VE gotta be kiddin me!
i value every1's frenship and i neva liked havin an enemy, no one does!
oh wells..
its sucha a small stupid lame shitty prob which got enlarged cos YOU wanted it to be that way and so be it!
i have no regrets that this happened!


RJ n the rest i met on fri.. i m sorry that our frenship had to start in sucha WIERD way cos of some bloody LAME problem! i hope our frenship wouldnt end juz cos of this ! i realli wanna be a gd fren ! i always wanted to be part of u guys( u , ash, jeba, cynn and pallavi and others if there r more)! wen i went to macs with you guys i felt much different compared to b4 wen i went out with my usual grp of frens who are fun and enjoyable! you guys r juz the same but there is a difference! there is something that u guys have which my usual grp of frens didnt have ! its SOMETHING! but i dunno wat lar! and i have already made up my mind that i m not gonna keep in contact with any of my sec skol frens except for 4 ppl cos i've had enough with ppl from my sec skol! i m not mentionin names. i do hope i could be part of u guys! i didnt no how to start it cos the oni 3 ppl i knew in ur grp of ppl were ash , jebby and pallavi . well the RI thingy did help me to get to know the rest of you guys which i m truly glad tat it happened . its oni the stoopid "bitchin prob" part which i hate! anyways i'd be realli glad to be part of you all ! and i hope this bloody prob isnt gonna spoil it all ! i m realli sorry dey!

ASH... i dunno if you realise it.. but i truly care a lot for you and the rest of the girls.. i juz dunno why is it so... and i hope none of you would hate me for wat happened!

altho i seem realli happy and funny on the outside.. this is truly wats goin on ..on the inside! its very annoyin! tats all i can say..

PS: this aint a resume to join your grp of ppl altho its seems like it ! lol! hahas
this is seriousli wat i wanna say but i juz cant build the courage to say it to yall face to face.. so i m sayin it thru my blog.

-new begining.

WTH!
i dont believe it!
all i did was to tell rj that YOU were talkin bout her and NOT BITCHIN!!!
if YOU are gonna take it wrong, it aint my fault!
juz bcoz i wen out with the girls doesnt mean i bitch about YOU!
YOU can go and ask them all!

this is exactli wat i said" hey rach, dont mind if i tell you something. i mean dont take it to heart or anything. but my fren who came along with e was TALKIN( note that! its TALKIN! not BITCHIN!) bout u. she's usualli like that. so dont mind her."
that was all i said! do you call that bitchin?! i mean seriousli ! HELLO!!
DO YOU KNOW WHATS BITCHIN?!
BITCHIN MEANS TO TALK BAD ABOUT OTHERS BEHIND THEIR BACK!!
WTF?!

I didnt talk bad about YOU!
my gosh! and seriousli if YOU think so, i cant help it!
its not my fault at all!
YOU can think all YOU want!
but i've got no hard feelings at all.
and i'm SORRY if YOU think i BITCHED ABOUT YOU!

It wasnt me wanted to end this friendship !
IT WAS YOU!
1ST YOU THINK THAT I BITCHED ABOUT YOU
THEN YOU SAY I M THE BITCH! WTF!?!
R U INSANE DUDE?!

well anyways i m not gonna ruin yor life in poly like YOU think!
i seriousli dont understand y YOU think that way.. but i cant change YOU .
so i'll juz leave YOU!
and i think ITS BETTA THAT WAY!

oh and YOU said thulsi was rite about me eh?
wat does she know bout me?
YOU would have probably told her that i made YOUR life a living hell in sec 1&2
and would have told some other stuff i dunno wat about.

juz by that sentence YOU made " you know what ? thulsi was rite about you"
i could juz plainly accuse YOU that YOU and thulsi were BITCHIN bout ME!
but i wont and i cant! cos i m not like that.
its juz "fate" if YOU were to call it, that we've gotta go our own ways like that.
sigh.
anyways i m not gonna bother bout this small issue which YOU ppl are tryna enlarge!
and like i said i'll neva bother YOU or look at YOU at all..
dont go ard tellin ppl things which are NOT true about ME!
i wont either! i m NOT BLOODY LOW OR CHEAP YOU GOT ME?!
if you read this its gd ! if not its YOUR lost!

oh and juz for YOUR info i use machan juz for the fun of it! Seriously i know i cant change YOU!
YOU WILL NEVA AGREE THAT A RABBIT HAS 4 legs BUT WOULD STUBBORNLY SAY THAT A RABBIT HAS 3 LEGS!

to jess: hey .. look i seriousli didnt do anything like what benna thinks.. its juz too bad everything ended this way and i m sorry if i affected you in any way aight? and i m leavin it to you if u still wanna keep in contact with me. i m fine with both. take care. :)


-an unexpected twist!

[[ Listening to : grillz - Nelly ]]

okay.
tdy was RI dance competition thingy n i wen for it!
lol.
as you know i am bloody bored at home,
so i would take all the chances i get to go out!
hahas.

anyways.. cedar and 2 other skol got in to the finals!
CONGRETS to you ppl!
ALL THE BEST for the finals!
and den i was with benna thru out the whole thing with ASH and RJ in front of me.
hahas.
i must say,
i realli was makin alot of comments on all the dances! haha.
i bet ash and rj would have gotten irritated or something.
and then comes a lil bit of a prob.
benna told me that she didnt like rj .. enamo enamo all.
i was like WTH is wrong with you! she is in front of us!
but she didnt care and carried on talkin or bitchin (if thats what you call it) about her.
ahiyo !
benna pls la.
dont like that la.
keep such comments to yourself machan! lol.
aint a gd start !
sigh.

then aft the dance i wen to eat at macs with jeba, rj,cynn and pallavi.
well i din exactli eat .
i juz got an ice milo!
MILO ! the secret of my ENERGY!
yay!
lol. ok that was juz crazy.
hahas tats cos its been a mth since i wen out! DUH!

later i wen to jeba's house and were talkin crap! hahas was fun being with her!
jebamani if u r readin this (tho i doubt it!lol): thanks for the time! i love you! hahas. you realli made my day! laugh and laugh oni la tdy!
since she's juz 8 floor above me, i got home in like 2 mins! haha

yeaps well thats all !

To those i met tdy: thanks alot for the time! lol.. glad i got to no you guys! i dont regret abit! it would have been more fun if ash came!

TO ash(if u r readin): dey ! can you pls pour out everything! like EVERYTHING! to whoever you r havin probs with or to some1 u can confide in. its betta! and i have been askin you wats wrong but u would neva say and i m not gonna do that anymore cos it would irritate any1 ! i understand! so i m leavin it to you. you've got so many ppl who wanna help you. but no 1 can do so if u dont tell wats wrong. yeaps so talk to the person you r havin probs with la.. thats all i can say dey! BE YOURSELF! YOU R STILL NOT YOURSELF ! always remember that you've got ppl behind u dey! hahas.
love you dey! :)

-ive not forgotten what you said yesterday! i never will!

[[ Listening to : Alai Alaiyai - Plannet Galatta ]]

okay.
wat the hell!
YOU came out of the blue.
YOU tell me YOU dont like my nick and my pictures.
YOU juz blew me off.
YOU juz set me thinkin.
YOU started some wierd convo about indians not comin up in life.
YOU juz pour your anger on ME!
YOU juz tell me that i am like all indians who dont bother about life
and only know what is enjoyment and nothin else!
YOU said i juz dream and nothin else.
YOU said i've not proven myself.
YES i agree i have not proven myself! but that doesn't mean u can hurt me that way!
YOUR words hurt me so badly that they were juz the key to my break down.
ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND!?!
i mean YOU juz pop up and YOU start showin YOUR anger that YOU have on indians generalli on ME!!
but what YOU said is/was true!
YOU said that i don't have the "FIRE" in me eh?
well i'll prove YOU wrong!
juz like i said .
i will not have any contact with YOU until i have proven myself to YOU!
and i know that there is no point talkin and not puttin it into action!
so watch ME!
at the same time i THANK YOU for all YOUR hurtin words which woke me up!
YOU are the reason for MY change!

-lifewillneverbethesameAGAIN!

[[ Listening to : my dil goes hmm hmm hmm - salaam namaste ]]

howdy ppl!
okay i dont know why i had this sudden urge to say that!
yeniways.. to kil time i watched

SALAAMNAMASTE

lol! i even typed it in the same color as the cd cover! hahas
okay i juz bloody love this movie! its like juz so nice!
a pinch of romance, a pinch of true love, a pinch of joy , a pinch of parenthood and a pinch of i dont know what ? lol . i've watched this movie like 4 or 5 times alreadi! its so gd!
haha esp the part wen saif makes fun of preity's name ( hamberrrrrrrr.. hamberrrrrrrr! ) hahahahaa.. it was realli cute..
then the other funny part was the crocodile dundee.. hahas
He goes " babes, tell them how much i the hateS the indians"
and the white chic goes " sorry?"
and he goes " yack-jack-ly!"
hahahaa
oh its gawd fun! hahas
realli cool movie!

now that the movie is finished.. i m gonna take a nice cool shower
and play my guitar! woo! hahas

yeaps.. man! its realli been a long time since i've actualli posted something fun! lol!
anyways gotta run!
seeya!

-SALAAMNAMASTE