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 Monday, August 31, 2009|11:35 PMDirty it up As much as i despise EMO/Childish Blog post, this post is actually gonna be of such! its been sucha long time aint it? anw, work's alright but i HATE( Abhor,DETEST,DISTAIN,LOATHE or any other word that can describe my hatred right now) WORKING. A LOT for that matter. i really dont know what else should i do. i have no other choice but to continue for the next 7 to 8 mths before i LEAVE FOR GOOD! i want that year's worth of experience. honestly i dont get why am i feeling this way. nope! not one bit. it pisses me off that i feel this way. its a weird feelin. i'm not sure if its the hormones. the kind where you feel the entire WORLD'S issue is on your shoulders and everyone is against you? and i totally appreciate my friends who have been listenin to my crap about how i dont like work and ON REPEAT MODE for that matter. i find it hard to let it go, to let go the fact that life is no longer like in school. i'm struggling and i'm afraid of comin out of the playful part of me. why you may ask, technically its the more confident side of me.( funny , i know). if not for that part of me, what remains is the serious and timid side which i totally hate! i love the happy go lucky feeling, but i hate it that people tend to get a lil extra strict with me cos of my playfulness. i wont deny that its human nature to do so. well, all i can say is that i'm currently livin in denial, which sucks. every time i wanna snap out of it, i go to that "Whatever" mode. right now, i just feel that i should just leave this country and Start afresh. new people , new environment, new identity and have no contact with old and current contacts. see what i mean ? So EMO ! Gawd! but honestly, if given a chance - I'd DO IT! DEFFO! i feel a lil better after pourin out this shit which i found hard to verbalize to anyone, not even my best friends. nope, dont know why . aight, i'm off. later peepz! xoxo 
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