If you guys read tdy's New paper,
you'd probably think its Crazy!
What in the world?!
a 9 year old girl was made pregnant by her 9 year old BOYFRIEND!

WHAT THE FUCK?!

Is that insane or BLOODY INSANE?
and the thing is she didnt know she was pregnant .
No one suspected a thing!
no one found out till her mom brought her to the clinic thinkin she's got UTI.
but ended up gettin a shockin news that her daughter's 6 mth pregnant and
was havin her morning sickness and all.
somewhere in the article, it stated that shes a child who doesnt know
what's pregnancy and stuff.
its not say she was raped!
she willingly had sex with her freakin 9 year old boyfriend in her own house!
its amazing how she knows bout sex but not pregnancy.
i mean shes not even of legal age to do such a thing.
i seriously dont know whats the world comin to man!
anw she gave birth to a baby boy and both the 9 year old parents are under-going councelling.

okay so enough about the 9 year olds.
attachment.
lets see.
ITS A FULL TIME SLACKING SESSION!
theres nothing much to do.
as much as i think its fun cos we'll be able to chit chat and all, i think its SO NOT GOOD!
cos WE LEARN VERY LIL OR NOTHIN AT ALL!
thats bad.
oh and theres one patient who looks like EAGLE -BOY!!
But he looks way better than eagle boy!
haha.
oh and the nurses are okay la.
other than that, its fun la.

ITS RAINING NOW!
and i'm sleepy now.
let me end by saying,

Good things are hard to find in life.
Be it Friendship, Love, Enjoyable times or beautiful memories.
Embrace it and never let it go to Relive the very Moment.

yup.
gd night!

my yummy choco thosai!!

the missing piece is inside my stomach :P

oh wells.

tmr is back to attachment!!

sigh.

i'm gonna miss sch boy!

i wont be going back till april 13 or 16.

13- might have to go for year 1 orientation .

16- school reopens!!

yup anw i shall start preparing for tmr now.

nite world!

Saying i love you,

Ruth.

Yayness!!
its over.
yes people ,today was the last day of exams.
yes and after that we planned our class gathering/outing and all.
haha.
this time i hope to see more than 5 people!
hahaha.
the last class outing was one pathetic but an Enojoyable one.
lol. anw, went to town with my girlies.
it was great going out again after along time.
took PEECHERSS!!
lol
neoprints.
yay! new addition to my collection.
well its kinda sad tho, most of us wont be seeing each other for a pretty long time.
but, of cos unless we meet up in between la.
cos we're gonna have our attachments this comin mon!
I KNOW!!
Why do all GOOD FUN COME TO AN END?!
sigh.

oh wells.
i was lookin thru my previous neoprint pics.
haha.
so many!
actually not that many la.
from secondary sch till now.
haha.
i dunno why have i become a freaking emotional ASS!
everything oso cry.
sad oso cry, Happy OSO cry.
aiya! what is the world comin to ?
lol.
i think prolly cos aunty rosy has packed her stuff to visit me.
she should be on her way.
haha. i dont think u guys understand but most of my grp mates know.
anw the reason is cos i was reading thru a letter from Prasetha.
a friend of mine who is in perth rite now.
haha.
it was so freakin fun.
she wrote about the birthday bash she organized for me .
and mind you! it was a LITERAL BASH!!
haha
with CAKE AND KAYA!
my goodness.
i can never forget the smell of my hair boy!
yea then our telephone conversations every night.
i still rmb how she laughs man!
its somehow very different .
then all the stupid stuffs we do during lessons.
creating dumb and random songs.
not doin POA during POA lesson.
instead we all talk about the most random stuffs on earth!
it was thru prasetha that i got closer to ALLY BELLY!
my female!haha.
and w/o me realising i had a tear running down my cheek!
i was like " WTF! "
it was a very touching letter la. means alot to me.
Damme i miss PRASETHA alot and ofcos my ALLY BELLY too!

then i read a letter from leng that she gave me on my 16th bday.
haha.
she was so damme nice i tell u .
she got me a chain and a metal box which looks like a book.
it was filled with dried flowers.
when she gave it to me i was like WOW!thanks leng!
she said open it and search for a treasure.
hahaha.
and i found a letter with a beautiful chain .
i love it man and really miss her loads too.
oh and i didnt cry when i read her letter , instead i was laughin.

its 2 of the few letters that i've received so far in my 17 comin 18 years of life.
and all of these letters mean ALOT and i mean ALOT to me!
seriously brought me back in time.
i love readin thru letters and i so very love drowning myself with the memories i treasure very much.
aiyo i m such an emotional person!
but hey every1 has a soft side and this is mine!

comin to my shopping list.
i found an OP bag that looked some what attractive to me.
i mite get it. still thinkin about it.
and as for the cap i dunno if its worth the money!
$36 for my "fedup of being good"cap.
but then again, i saw another cap! its those cap like oliver twist looking ones or i think
golf people use it too.
or a paperboy?
well, planning to check out other places when i can.
then the new havaianas Flash is one thing that i've been planning to get since it was released.
saw it today.
should be gettin it.
shoes?!
still cant seem to find The Oh-so-Perfecto one!

will see how things go.
yup its time i go have a nice shower and relax!
shall update the soonest=)
toodles!

somebody slap me!
aiyoyo.
everytime i study, i get distracted!
and what distracts me?
Shopping!! *cheeky grins*
lol.
-my oh-so-perfect shoes which i cant seem to find anywhere.
-my beautiful "fed up of being good" cap.
-my bag in mind, but i dont know what it looks like in shops.
-the new havaianas!
-2nd EAR HOLE!!
-Printed tees.
-Esprit denim skirt!!
-the wallet.
-the perfume i wanted to get from the airport.(i forgot the brand.how smart of me?)
-EARRINGs.( Never enough :P)
see! all these things just keep comin to my mind and say "HELLO!! come get me Quick!!HURRY!"
what am i suppose to do ?
oh no!
i m gettin from back to worst!
spendin too much!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
Save! save!! save!!SAVEEEEEE MONEYY!!
siao.

oh yea i just remembered.
i wanna pay a visit to novena square 2 soon!
my mom told me its a new shopping mall juz beside velocity or atleast i think its beside!
and she also said there are many shops that would interest me.
hmmm.
HOW VERY INTERESSTIN?! *CheekySmiles*
lol.
i think it should be fine since i haven't been shoppin in a while.
:P
we shall see.
haha.
anw you guys should watch the illusionist!
its a darn cool movie!
give it a 3 1/2 out of 5.

alright.
time i study my ass off the chair boy!
lol.
shall update when the time comes.
which is Tmr !

and between now and then,
till i see yall again ,
i'll be loving yall.
Love, me.
=)

hello.
Ni men hao?

i m feeling extremely guilty for 2 reasons.
[1]. I didnt study at all today.
[2]. I've been eating and eating and EATING!!
oh gawd!
its not say i've been eating healthy food or anything.
I'VE BEEN EATING JUNK FOOD!
its really amazing to know how much food i can eat all day long!
i wont be surprise if i got back on 2 kg!
ARGH!
*bangs head on the wall*

yesterday was a much productive day compared to today.
not cool.
tdy was merely SLACKIN!
what am i gonna do?
sigh.
oh wells
i've got one last day tmr to study for 1034.
i must make sure i make full use of it.
aight. i just felt like updating.
so there you are.

well since i m not gonna study now, i shall watch a movie.
adiyos!

heyo.
i m gonna dedicate this entire post solely to my favourite/recommended songs.
its in random order.
listen to it aight?


|that girl|


|cry baby cry|


|Irreplaceable|


|Ketchup song|


|walk away|


|say it right|


|All good things|


|Dilemma|


|buttons|


|more than words|


|it ends tonight|


|how to save a life|


|ice box|


|come to me|

Enjoy. more comin up soon!

yes i know.
a new blog skin again.
lol.
i think i've changed about 7-9 skins so far since the begining of this year.
i just cant seem to find the PERFECT skin.
but somehow this skin attracted me.
probably cos its pretty simple.
as much as i wanna lead a simple life, i dont think it would be appropriate.
cos 1. too boring. 2. No aim. 3. everything will be like a routine and there'll be nothin unexpected.
sigh.
yea so i've decided to lead a more sophisticated,less simple life!
i want everyday of my life to be interestin and unexpected.
so yea.

anw i spent my chinese new year eve at the airport yesterday with my family,my aunt and cuz.
was not too bad.
had hot vanilla and a choco cake from coffee bean.
it was awesome boy!
then went walkin ard for a while and omg!
terminal 1 was like a mini lil india!
goodness gracious.
it was so scary. everywhere i turn u can see india guys.
and some of them talk so freakin loudly like the other party on the line is DEAF!
tsk tsk tsk.
yea but other than that it was fine i guess.

oh yes!
did i mention that my home theatre system is home now?
yes it is!
omg!
its so BEAUTIFUL!!
sound quality is HOTNESS!
lovin it.
oh and i had a hair cut.
gosh!
it was so freakin thick and now its better.
i feel more comfortable now.

1029 exam was do-able.
i think secured myself a passing grade.
well 2 down and 2 to go.
the upcoming ones need a whole lot of concentration and focus.
not that the others dont.
its just that its SCIENCE!
u know how some subject has its "STANDARD/Status".
yea like English and Math. Science happens to be another member of the crew!
so like that la.

oh my goddness!
yall know what?
the visa advert won the best advert!
the one that goes, " my brather is going on a gerrny today! i Vaant to bring him goood fortune!..."
so cool!
wait, was it mastercard?

alrite have a great lunar new year everyone!

GONG XI FA CAI!
HONG BAO NA LAI! :p
haha.

you are loved!

A BIG hello to everyone!

HAPPY V'DAY TO ONE AND ALL!
yes. so its vday tdy.
but it kinda like make me think its a day full of DRAMA!
haha.
you can see guys rushing to buy a rose or other gifts for their girlfriends.
followed by a short letter written in their neatest.
you dont get to see such a scene everyday except on vday.
lol.
how very interesting eh?
but i seriously think it shouldnt be the way.
you mean to say vday is the only day you'll tell your significant other that you love him/her very much ?
i dont think so.
like what deb said today, EVERYDAY SHOULD BE V'DAY!
but of cos its pretty much impossible.
and of cos there should be bits of arguements if not , life wont be as interesting as it should be.

okay the way i've typed so far, make things seem as if vday is only meant for couples.
Hell NO!
V'day is meant for everyone!
Friends , family, teachers , why even PETs too!
lol i miss my Bf somehow.
wait are we still att?
haha i still have no idea.
but doesnt matter, i still love him.
Happy V'day Nap Nap!

oh yea, i read sofina's blog about how she loves letters she receives from her friends.
its true.
hand-written letters with sincerity are just hard to beat !
i m absolutely fine even if i were to get loads of such letters as gifts.
they are one of the best forms of memories after pictures!
it makes you feel like whoever who wrote the letter is just beside you or somewhat like that.
like i tagged in sofina's blog, letters are one of the best company when you feel lonely, down, need someone to talk to, miss someone, happy,bored and what not ?
i miss those times in sec sch where we exchanged letters and post cards with each other.
lol. and i STILL HAVE THEM!
its really nice to read them after a long time.

oh wells.
its time for me to go start mugging for 1029 now.
i cant wait for FRIDAY!!
woohoo!
and ash! i m so gonna get my 2nd ear piercing SOOON!!
lol.

-outtatheway.

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. You give and take equally in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people. You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together. Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly. People crave your praise and complements.

You Are 17 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

lol. okay. i do act my age.. actually i m turning 18. oops!

heyo!
crap.
my head's spinning after studyin sociology for hours.
oh gawd.
i think i completed about 8 chaps.
i think theres "Sociology-information-JAM" going on in my brain!
i can just feel it.

anw
updates about my weekend.
hmmm.
well i can say that i didnt study AT ALL.
how bad is that?
with exams juz this wed.
tsk tsk.
doesnt matter.its alrdy over. no point thinkin about it.
but the HIGHLIGHT for the weekend was SUNDAY!
which was ytd!
man! it was one helluva day!
my parents and i went down to vivocity and harbourfront centre ( is that what its called?lol)
we went to look for a home theatre system cos the dvd player and our tv's sound system is juz hopelessly HOPELESS!
everytime we watch a movie, we'll be having an "auto-fast forward" movie!
its so freakin annoying!
and the worst part is, the dvd player esp fast forward the MOST INTERESTING PART of the MOVIE!
goodness!
as i was sayin, we went to get the home theatre system.
but before that, we were window shopping.
and i bought 2 t-shirts.
haha.
and my dad just adore watches like i dont know what.
lol.
so we went into many many watch shops.
and guess what i saw in one of the many many shops we went into?
MY LOVELY FOSSIL WATCH!
but it was in black and in metal with a smooth finish!
oh wow.
i just couldnt get my eyes off it.
my dad came up to me and ask me if i liked it.
i was like DUH!!
hahah.
i mean i was more polite than that of cos!
my mom said it looked really beautiful.
then my dad said "okay. pack this for me."
for a moment, i felt i was in a movie!
i was damme shock too.
woah!
he just gave it to me.
woooo!
i love it man!
haha.
i took the watch as my valentine's day gift!
lol.
yup and we got our home theatre system ytd too.
its comin this week.
Yayness baby!
i cant wait for exams to end and then i can enjoy the surround system Like the World is a Triangle.
okay. that wasnt necessary neither was it relevant.
but Random!.
okay.
i think i've spent more time then i expected on this post.

oh oh! an unexpected sec sch friend sent me a link a blog.
lol. and guess whose blog it was?
MINE!
lol.
as in my old blog.
hahahahaha. i juz cant stop laughing .
my gooosh!
u guys should read it.
its so "Secondary school" like.
haha. i wont be surprise if 10 yrs down the road i end up finding this very blog i have rite now and say its so " Teenage going young adult " like.
http://www.can-i-walk-by-ur-life.blogspot.com/
aight time to go.
its back to
STUDY STUDY MUG MUG!
STUDY STUDY MUG MUG!
lol.
some kinda chant that was.

-touch me dont touch me dont touch me sonia.
love the song!

gooodness!
it took me almost 10 mins to sign in to blogger.
anw, it feels pretty wierd updatin at this hour.
but i juz felt like it tdy.
so coming to tdy.

i had a very usual day.
the same old thing.
oh juz that i din have sch.
lol.
so i was home.
i did abit of studyin and was watchin tv.
i juz started watchin this new chinese drama at 9.
"Happily ever after".
haha.
so fairytale-like.
yea some what it is a fairy tale.
about the cowheard and somebody.
i cant exactly rmb.
haha.
its funny la.
and elvin is cute.
oh ya!
theres this other guy who acts like a sissy!
eeyeerr!
i seriously think he make a gd sissy.
gives me the creeps man!
haha.
then the other show i watched was "the Dance floor".
not bad.
they can dance.
i think platinum (or however they spelt their grp's name) should get into the finals.

i was readin thru a fren's blog just now.
oh and her name's NyL.
i have to agree with her.
this sem 2 has been filled with loads of tension and a couple of misunderstandings.
Sem 1 was WAY better.
we were all together and close as a grp.
not that we are not NOW, but its juz not the same i guess.
haha.
how we bitched about other grp ppl.
now, its about our own.
kinda disheartening actually.
but i sure do hope things will be different in SEM 1, Year 2 that is.
& for THE GOOD!

i really hope we could all put our differences a side and quit bothering about the dark side of others.
Always look on the bright side of Everyone.
i mean who cares if they are annoying,dumb,photocopy machines,crazy,wierd and what not?
everyone is unique in their very own special way.
so heck care about it and move on with life as one!
i really think we make a great grp 21 and we should all prove those who complained about us WRONG !
Show them that THEY ARE SO WRONG ABOUT US.

i've always tried to motivate the class, but i guess i was too scared and very anxious to do so.
or rather i appear weak.
i dunno if i've been a gd leader to my grp members and my sub-grp members, but i m glad i was given the chance to experience what its like being one.
one things for sure ,its no easy job.For Me.
but nevertheless, i know i tried.

i wanna apologise to everyone ,if i had hurt your feelings or made u pissed at any point of time.
pls dont take it to heart and do forget all the bitter encounters.
i do hope we could all get to know each other better in the coming seconds,minutes,hours,days,months,years and so on.

and to my pals (Mae,Deb,Skk,Nyl,Shah,Atiqah,afiqah and raudah)
I m really glad you guys came into my life.
you guys have played and still are playin and will always be playin a special role in my life.
I thank all of you for All the sweet memories and wonderful times together.
My experiences with you guys have moulded me to become a better person and i m grateful for that.
Esp, you Mae.
In other words, I LOVE YOU GUYS ALOT!
thats something i havent told you guys in ages!

okay this is too Lurvy durvy and sentimental!
Cut it!
hahaha.
yea but i mean it okay!
damme, i feel like i m being too nice.
but it doesnt matter ,year 1 is comin to an end.
so i dedicate this entire post to grp 21 and my pals =)

alrite i'll get going now.
gd nite World!

You Are An ESFP

The Performer You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others.A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic.You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally.You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic. You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

You Have Your Sarcastic Moments

While you're not sarcastic at all times, you definitely have a cynical edge.In your opinion, not all people are annoying. Some are dead!And although you do have your genuine moments, you can't help getting your zingers in.Some people might be a little hurt by your sarcasm, but it's more likely they think you're hilarious.

You Should Drive a Saturn Sky

You're sleek and smooth, and you need a car to match your hot persona.Besides, sometimes you want your top up - and sometimes you want it down.

Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world.And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly. Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life.You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful. You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person.With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!

You Play it Cool

You're not in your face, smokin' hot... and it's all by designYou have a carefully crafted cool persona, leaving everyone wanting to know just a little more.

You Are A Fun Friend

You're the one who keeps your group laughingAnd you've always got an idea for something fun to doThe party's not complete without youAnd you wouldn't miss it for the world

You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional.You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly.Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you.You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature.Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind

okay i was feeling bored!
so yea.
lol.
loved!

helloness!
SINGAPORE WON!!! WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS!!!
haha. yayness!

anw
i just came out of shower.
tdy was one crazy day i could say.
i got to sch early to meet nyl to do our chinese role play.
in the end other members of our grp completed it.
yea then we had our clinical session.
was kinda fun .
learned how to do CPR.
so our teacher was tellin us something about American nose is more difficult to touch, with your palm on the person's forehead,compared to Asian nose or something like that.
cos you need to put ur palm on the unresponsive patient's fore head to maintain the airway.
(head tilt chin lift). aiya those who know how to do CPR will know what i mean.
then all of a sudden she said " Dont Believe?" and guess what she did?
she went to the person who was nearest to her and put her palm on the person's forehead and pinch the nose.
and that person happens to be ME!
what in the world.
she caught me by surprise man!
i was so freakin shocked.
aiyoyo.
i think my face would have been a priceless one at the very moment.
lol.
oh and i must mention, sofina was so freakin funny la.
she juz went on and on and on.
my goodness!
she can really talk for long hours boy!
her actions really tickle me.
yea then later had my chinese ica which i think i screwed up.
but the teacher said no one failed la.
so okay la hor.
omg! i think i m startin to sound like trina!
she loves using the "hor!"
haha.
then went to library and shah was telling us about his experience at OCH.
lol.
scary man!
doors just started closing at every floor.
gosh! imagine that.
and sofina was crazy i tell u.
she was talkin and talkin.
came out with so many wierd name for blogs.
kadavuleh!
haha.

when i was on the way home, i saw 2 guys riding bicycle.
and i thought to myself, oh GAWD!
i dunno how to ride one!!
siao man.
i need to learn to ride a bicycle asap.
aiya k la i gonna mug again.
i feel like a bookworm!
hehe.

oh yes! O'level RESULTS ARE COMIN OUT THIS FRIDAY!!
oh JESUS!
i m scared man.
i hope i did well for my ENGLISH!
Wish me all the best ppl!

& i WISH ALL THE BEST TO ALL 2006 Olevel students!
=) love!

hello yall readers!

(DISCLAIMERS: when reading whats written below, pls DO NOT READ it with an ANGRY tone ,BUT a CASUAL tone, in your mind. cos i m NOT typing this with anger, but juz cos i needed to pour out. i m saying this cos ppl tend to assume the tone themselves.its not like u r hearing it, is it? so yes! its betta to let others know the kinda tone to be read with. lol. i hope you get what i mean!)

i m pissed or rather i was pissed.
its PISSED, NOT ANGRY.
they are 2 different things.
since ytd.
why?
cos of the way, that i feel, i've been treated.
like invisible.
its not that i dont wanna talk you know?
i wanna talk! i LOVE to talk.
but talk what?!'
its not as if i know what going on.
talk also i dont feel comfortable.
eg: there are 5 ppl. you talk, all 5 listen but only 1 ans.
i mean usually when you talk, atleast 2 or 3 will ans.
you know that kinda thing?
and even if got ans ah, the ans like for the sake of answering.(or at least thats how i feel)
like uncomfortness and awkwardness fills the air!
i can just feel it!
its freakin annoyin.
and when that happens, my freakin mood changes the very sec!
how to concentrate like that you tell me la?
seriously, it aint cool
to feel like you are being isolated.
seriously, i feel damme down /low/depressed.
EMO!
i dunno if they are thinking " oh since she wants to be quiet and alone, then okay la. let it be."
i mean its wierd la.
if thats what yall think ah then my ans is " NO! dont leave me alone. its not that i wanna be like that. i tried talkin like how i used to , but no its not workin. i just dont feel welcomed.i would feel welcomed, if you guys would just be like before.forget everything can?i kinda like forgot everything but when you guys treat me like that ah like damme sad lor. sigh. can like put yourself in my shoes and imagine if sucha thing were to happen to you , what would u do?Just imagine this for awhile. Everything is normal. Everyone juz enjoys your company and all. The going out together,talkin random stuff and what not? Suddenly all of these are taken away from you by people whom u spend loads of enjoyable times with. Like SNAP and its GONE!
What would u do?
How would u feel?
Think.No really ,think about it.
IF(its IF), walk away is your answer, then sorry, i'm not prepared and will never be prepared to do so either."

i feel like some kinda diseased person or some criminal lor!
stay away until like that.
if you say " aiyo ! you thinking too much."
yes! i m. but like i said before.
not that i want to. its just AUTO!
unintentional!
i cant help it.
it runs in the blood.

i've tried every way to just forget about it.
cry,laugh,go crazy,talk to myself(intrapersonal),think about the fun times,watch movie and what not?
of cos not including stupid things like drinking,smoking,cutting myself and whatever la.
i m not dumb to do such things and i will never do it!
somehow i will forget about it and then when i see them again and the same thing happens and
there you go again.
its a cycle!
gawd!
i really m sick and tired of this la.
pls la.
i'm askin for a priceless thing, thats all.
what is it?
can stop feeling awkward and making me feel awkward and isolated can?
i seriously feel like a dumb dumb you know? just sit there and not say anything.
you ask me to talk. ya okay i talk.
but about what? you guys know what yall are talkin bout.
but i dont.
so how liddat?
i try join in the conversation oso dunno how to. No clue.
i oso cannot anyhow talk what , right?
blur-block lor. use handphone as a way of escape .
not showin that i feel left out.
aiyo i become like someone.
*hint* last time oso our grp.
den always use handphone.
now i know how she would have felt.
but that one aiya dunno what to say la.
aiyo i dunno if its retribution.
sigh.
now i seriously cannot take it.
taboleh tahan. so i tell yall thru my blog.
i scared to tell yall face to face.
its too scary and alot of stress involved la.
i'll probably hyperventilate and faint on the spot .
i also dunno if yall will read anot la.but no harm tryin i guess.
is it too much for me to ask?
yes i know, NOT EASY.
it takes time.
sure.
slowly, but not too slow.
whole-heartedly and willingly.
theres this invisible gap between us .
close that gap la!
lol.

i dunno if yall know who you are, but i do hope u do.
so yall know what i m thinking now.
i'm serious! PLS READ THE ABOVE once again . just in case u read wrongly.
and to those who've been wondering why my mood keep changing from damme lively and suddenly damme quiet, the above is the very reason why.
it took me a lot of courage to type this out.
cos this could easily cause a huge misunderstanding or COULD make anyone of them think
"huh? whats wrong with her? so childish! ".
pls dont get me wrong.
i m just speaking my heart out.
i just cant keep this pain to myself.
i need to let it out.

i think i m sucha carrot!
when it comes to others problem i m both strong on the inside and outside.
(thats is , an uncooked carrot.)
but when it comes to me, as in the problem, i may look strong on the outside but soft on the inside.
(that is, a boiled carrot. which mean the boiling is the problem i m facing)
lol.

siao! i think i m crazy.
talking rubbish.
so random!

ya so this is whats been bothering me since ytd.

-END of why Was i pissed-

anw i went out with ally yesterday.
we took a couple of photos and den ate ice cream cos ally pandan felt like fainting cos she's got low bp and low glucose!
omg!
den she said she was so aunty . i cant rmb why?
then i came up with something.lol
THERES AN AUNTY IN EVERY WOMAN!
like wtf! so random and dumb!hahaha
and went to watch HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
so sad la.
i mean yea the movie is damme sad and all.
but i damme sad cos i had to leave half way while the movie was going on la!
SO KNS LA!
actually its my fault la.
i dint tell my mom i was gonna watch movie with ally ma.
of i told her she'll scold me and ground me or something cos its exam period and she hasnt seen me studyin. lol :P
den she asked me to be home by 6.45!
WTH!
den poor ally had to watch the movie till the end!
sigh.
but i still know the ending.
omg like wth la!
how the heck can it end like that!
argh!
damme sad.

comin to tdy.
i met timmay aft sch.
went to a cafe near his area.
omg! the ice choco is so darn GD!
almost as gd as the one in esplanade!
in fact slightly betta!
we even ordered another one more each!
haha.
den we had satay.
oh oh and here comes the best part!
we played POOL!
omg.
i never knew i was gd.
not some champion or anything.
but gd enough for someone who hadnt played it in a really long time.
we played atleast 7 games b4 we left!
i tell you me 3 rd game was darn cool la!
i SCORED 3 IN A ROW!!
2 games i nearly won!
shiok la.
i love pool!
haha tim said i had natural talent.
who knows? MAyB.
lol.
i had a gr8 time out with him .

yea well i got home at 5 and i started blogging.
lol.
it took me almost 2 hours to complete this post!
my goodness.

yea well i guess i shall end here for tdy.
thanks for hearing me out.
shall update the soonest!
till then, you r loved!